Since I graduated in 2012, I have tirelessly worked and been the main breadwinner for the family. It feels odd to step back and to let Chase provide for our family. The first day I woke up with nowhere to go, I spent most of the day weeping....ugly cry...full out...weeping. The feeling of having a full day to spend with my children without being interrupted by "Hey Dr. Katie" calls was so liberating. The feeling of knowing these days would continue with no foreseeable stop. Unbelievable. Overwhelming.
My children are so beautiful. I had no idea when I was planning this career what having children would mean...how it would shift all that I hold dear. Maybe I can't have it all - a perfectly balanced career and home life, but I want to be sure to choose what is better. So for the time being, I'm laying my career on the altar like Abraham giving Isaac to God. Maybe someday, God will restore my career, but for now...I'm going to teach 2 little babies everything I can. I'm going to play cars, meow like a cat, cook dinner by 6, take naps, and read books. I felt these wonder years slipping away, but I've stopped running for a bit to savor every moment.
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